my moms in jail. she has been since october. we’ve never really been close. shes bitter, and psycho and cant show her emotions. she ended up being able to come to my graduation the other night. they rehab shes at gave her an escort so she wouldnt miss my first ever graduation. when i got there, i sat with my boyfriend, his mom and my two best friends. my moms boyfriend took the rest of my family and moved them way in the back because my mom told him ‘thats where she wants to sit.’ so he did as she said. i was joking with my friends before she got there like ‘wouldnt it be funny if my mom looked right at me, and walked right by me and over to her boyfriend?!’ little did i know it wouldnt be a joke anymore. because when she got there, thats exactly what she did. she didnt end up coming over to me for like, 15 minutes. she hugged me and stared at me. she was all ‘why do you look so pretty?’ and she looked and sounded disgusted with me. i didnt know what to say so i ignored it. i wanted her to talk to my instructor so i brought my mom over to her, and my instructor hugged her and she was like ‘im so proud of ciara. shes going to be an amazing hair dresser one day. shes worked her ass off and you should be proud of her. shes going to be big.’ and instead of saying thank you, or agreeing. my mom looked at me and she was like, ‘psh. i thought you couldnt even cut hair.’ it went right over my head at the time. i went up on stage to get my awards and stuff and i had to give my speech. mind you, in the beginning of the year we had to write goal letters. mine was extremely personal. my instructor asked me that day if i was planning on reading it, and i told her no, i was going to write a new one. and she agreed because it might make some people feel uncomfortable. she also told me it was the most beautiful thing shes ever read and she started bawling when she read it. she told me whatever i said that night. it was going to make her cry ha. and mind you my teachers a hardass tiny puerto rican lady. she doesnt cry ;p